how did we get here

i used to laugh,
fall to my knees and shake with mirth.
we used to cry,
held onto each other like we'd never let go.
and how we ran.
running around playing grown up games, ran headlong into trouble, ran from things deemed unfavorable. we'd run circles around ourselves for amusement.
now there's only one entity i seem to be running from, and it's myself.