fader

found this while clearing out my phone.

24 Dec 2009
imagine this,
the year was 2006. Christmas eve.
flew into melbourne at ard 9pm.
feeling pretty miserable.
in love. in(unrequited) love.

pick me, choose me, love me.

that was the year. slept Christmas away. 18 full hours.
save for the periodic reliefs to the bathroom.
exhaustion or depression,
rest or relief,
love or nothing.

it's now 2009.
paris beckons.
change.
him.